A Thousand Miles (Hide)

How long must I wait
For an eternity passes
Before I have returned
To your warm embrace
To the comforting face
Of the one I hold dear
How long must I wait
To tell you the truth
To make aware
That I am alone
Is that I only feel towards you
More than that of a 'bud'
I feel, towards you, love
A word I never liked
That I constantly strayed from
I never had admitted
I would never have told
That I have that feeling
I would have hid
I would have lied
Told everyone it's crazy
That love is pointless
While all along
This whole time
I felt it
More than anyone would know
More than I dare to tell
More than I can bear
I try to ignore
I try to hide
Without surprise
I am met with failures
Knowing that it's useless
I want to admit
But who would believe me
The one who dissed
The one who spoke against
The one who has done nothing
But lie about her feelings
Who would even care
For somebody who tried
As hard as she might
To erase the feeling
To become normal
Trying to ignore the torture
Of being so far away
A thousand miles
From who I want never to leave
From who I want to be mine
To call my love
The only one I want
To call love
My love

Falling Deeper

Reaching out

For anything

To grab hold

Of the reality

Trying to stay sane

Telling myself

Its true

Its real

Knowing deep inside

That it couldnt be true

Nothing could ever go so well

Breathe

With each painful breath that I take in

I can not help but think

How wonderful it would be

Without the pain

The constant need to breathe

Having no room

Clustered in an open space

Where nobody can understand

Update

 I know that I have not written in about a year or so but if all goes as planned I will start posting more poems more often. thank you for reading.